My moods tend to go up and down a lot. But when I'm happy, I'm never truly happy, I know that soon it will end, and the sadness will come back. I could be anywhere, at school, at home, out with friends, and suddenly it hits me. An overwhelming feeling of despair and emptiness. From that point, my whole world is different, I see and think about things in a different way. I could be in a room full of people, and all I feel is loneliness. I feel trapped, I want to escape, but I cant escape from myself, the darkness comes from inside me.
Am I describing depression? I'm worried about myself. Its been going on for ages, but I feel it getting worse, it's eating away at me slowly, changing me into a new person. This pain isn't me, its not who I want to be. I want to be happy again, and not pretend happy, really truly happy, I want to be free from these thoughts... I don't know what to do
