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Hate to ruin the perfect 7,777 replies that this thread has, but here goes...


-Ugh, I've just wasted the last hour that could have been spent studying, thinking about you and feeling sad. You were so, so into me... did it just disappear? Do I need to actually be in front of you to keep your interest up? Is the knowledge of my existence and my feelings in Dublin not enough for you? I made the mistake of watching a video of you and you're so cute and I miss you. Chicago seems so far away right now. Did you meet someone else? That's ok, I did too. But I feel like I should have an explanation. I don't know if you'll ever talk to me again. Is this it? Or maybe I'll see you again in the next three months. Who fucking knows? Who ever fucking knows anything with you?

All I know is since that night in December when I stayed online to you til 2am to make sure you were okay, and heard practically nothing from you after that, is that my feelings have faded. Which makes me sad but it's true. Since I figured out how little effort you really put in. Maybe you cared about me a lot once, but you're not able to keep it up when I can't be physically with you every day. And that's ok. But it makes me sad.

- Godddddd, it was so good to see you on New Year's, and funny how we just slipped into conversation and it was just like always, even if we haven't seen each other in seven months. I guess after being best friends for four years a little thing like breaking up can't get in the way of that. I love the way you talk, the way you laugh, how we shared a glass of prosecco as though we still shared everything. You have a new hoodie. When I hugged you I never wanted to let go.

- Wouldn't mind a bit of spooning again either... or another kiss. C'mere.