[xxpaigiexx]

I wish that things could go back to the way they were before. So much has changed and I can't stand to think that one day I could wake up and hear the news that you have taken your own life, that scares me. As much as I want to support you, it's difficult to support you and be there knowing that you may do one day. I don't know if I could deal with it. That's why I always keep you at an arms length. I should be a better friend, I wish I could be. Too much time has passed and I'm scared for you.