[LadySerine]

My uncle was babysitting me while my mom is on a business trip. He was a last resort, since I met him once when I was 2. But she had been away for a week. 3 days ago, my uncle grabbed my butt while I was clearing the dishes. I smacked his hand away, and dropped my plate on my foot and it started bleeding really bad. Then he got all mad at me for getting blood on the floor. He grabbed me and took me into the bathroom and threw me into the bathtub. By this time I was screaming, and he punched me in the face and started taking my clothes off. He took his pants off too and forced me to to have sex with him. I can't say the other word. After he did that he took out 2 big metal things and shoved them into my butt and vagina. Then he grabbed my head and did it in my mouth. I called my mom that late that night when he was sleeping and told her the story. I called the cops, and he was arrested. But now, I can't even handle being in the same room with an adult guy I don't know very well, or anyone that looks remotely like my uncle. I can't talk with my friends or family without crying. I haven't been getting very much sleep at night because of nightmares. I feel really depressed, no matter how much people try to cheer me up. I haven't turned any of my homework or work in at school because I keep having flashbacks. I don't know what to do. I feel like if I have no control, then why should I keep doing this. I keep thinking of painful ways to kill myself. Can anyone help?