Hey there,
First of, welcome to the side!
I can assure you, that noone here is a crappositing idiot^^
I'm sorry you feel so hurt, that you turned to
SH. I'm sure you are a wondeful person and deserve so much better.
Have you seen the Alternetives to
SH treat yet? (
http://www.teenhelp.org/forums/f12-s...ves-self-harm/)
Maybe you can check it out and find something, that will help. Not everything works for everyone though, so you might have to try a few things, before you find something that helps. But don't give up. You will get past this and the sooner you stop
SH and use the alternatives, the easier it will be to quit (not saying it will be easy, but easier)
Also it does not make you pathetic. Neither, that it didn't bleed much, nor that you turned to
SH. You are you and your wounds don't reflect how deep your pain is and they never will. Please try not to think like that. Think of it as a reaction of your body and subconsciousnes. They want you to be fine and not to be hurt.
Also you might want to remember that maybe
SH will make you feel better for a short time, but it won't slove your problem. Actually it will only create even more problems and make things even worse over time.
Do you know what made you self harm? If you don't, you might want to try to write a journal, which helps a lot, not only to let your emotions out in a safe way, but also to find the reason behind your feelings.
You could also try talking to someone. That can be a parent, teacher, counselour or friend. Talking with others gives you a new perspective on things and that might just be what you need. Also, while you talking to someone, you wont be able to harm yourself and that person could keep you safe until you're feeling better again.
Have you seen the chat? You could log in there and ask someone if they would listen to you. Most people will. Also, if you want to talk to someone you can sent me a
pm.
Take care
