[Complete Love.]

WHY THE FUCK IS THIS SO FUCKING HARD! FUCK! i GIVE UP! just fucking will waste away like a piece of shit. damn. AGGHHHH! I'v tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried..... and tried and tried and tried..... and tried. etc. and guess what? I'm still here. At square one. Dont wake me up tomorrow. I know i'm not strong enough to face it. I dont want to go through it again. I hate it. Double hate... LOATHE! aughh! Dont wake me up. I just want to sleep through the whole day. then wake up in the morning and feel accomplished because I went an entire day without having to deal with it. Except... I'm sure it'll follow me in my dreams. thats even if I sleep at night. I'm done. Okay? I'm not okay. I'M NOT FUCKING OKAY! Damn it! Please help me. I can't do this alone. I would rather be dead than have to go on living life with this every day. After all i'm as good as dead with it. If i'm not now I will be. I cant do this alone. (sobbing)