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Ever since fourth grade, I've been missing a ton of school and I haven't been getting the best grades. It is a mix between constantly being sick, having social anxiety, depression, arthritis in my hands, scoliosis. There's a whole list of things that make going to school hard for me. At first I just disliked school, but now when I think about it I get anxious, stressed, I even have suicidal thoughts sometimes. I don't know what I'm suppose to do. I've researched online schools and tuition free public schooling is not offered to where I live. They do have private schools but they cost a lot of money and we can't afford it. I can't even drop out yet if I wanted to because I'm only 15(16 soon). I know many people would think that I should just be able to deal with it for the next few years, but when I think about how long that will actually drag on, I start having awful thoughts again. This is something I've been dealing with for a long time now and I honestly don't know how much more I can take