[Coffee.]

Sorry for late reply. I hope you talked to your therapist about it. I've recently relapsed into cutting (over a week clean now, woo) and it's not worth it. It seems worth it, but it's not. There's so much shame, there's so much hiding, and it's just a nightmare to be dealing with that urge again. It's scary. When you're in these states, it seems like the way out. It breaks you away from the mundane bullshit of daily life that has come crashing down on us. It's an escape-but it breaks you into another reality of addiction and harm. I know you know all of this, and I'm not sure this is good advice, but know the coping skills are worth it. The 'get through tonight' thoughts are worth it. You're worth it, and your recovery has not been for nothing. You're strong as fuck, Jenna, and even if you've somehow relapsed since you wrote this, I still look up to you for two years. You're amazing.