[CrusadingAvenger]

Hey there Sarah,

I'm sorry to hear what you're going through, and I understand how difficult this must be for you. Well, first off, this M girl that you speak of, have you thought about telling her about how she's been making you feel lately? I believe if you just spoke to her and expressed your concerns about your friendship with her, she'll understand, but there's also a possibility that she might not. Either way, you have to talk to her about this because if you don't, how are you ever going to know if she's a good friend to you? It's better to find out than to be left later on pondering about what you could've done.

You don't sound like a jealous person that you believe yourself to be. You're just lost without any direction because you feel like an outcast, and you don't know who your friends are, or if there are any true friends that exists. At your age, it's hard to find those really good friends, especially since most of the time people are organized into specific groups, and you either fit in with them, or you don't. It doesn't matter if you fit in with people or not. You have to love who you are, and only then, there will be people that you will come across who'll want to be part of your life. Don't be somebody that you're not, and don't pay attention to those who won't give you their full attention; those people aren't worth the hassle.

Somewhere out there, there are good people out there that you'll come across who'll want to be friends with you because they like you for who you are. Keep holding on to hope and faith, and believe in yourself. You have the capability of making friends. Everyone does. All you have to do is be yourself. People who want to be friends with you want to see Sarah (you) for who she is, not for who she's not. Give yourself a chance, and you will come across people who will become your friends in time.

I wish you all the very best, and take care of yourself.

All the best from your friendly guy,
Mark