Anxiety(?), Depression(?), Stress(?)? -
October 14th 2014, 03:36 AM
I believe I may be suffering from anxiety, depression, or most likely bipolar.
Some days when I come home, I just don't feel it. I try my best to convince myself, but I just feel horrible, and when I think into it, I nearly cry sometimes. I sit on my computer and play videogames until it goes away or I go to sleep. I give myself plenty of reasons. I can't decide what I want in life? Is Sarah (see; 'Cutting Loose Ends', tl dr: crush gone wrong don't want relationship but crush still there) the reason for my depression? Too much work? Highschool is bad?
I just grind through my homework if there's any due the next day, and waste my time on unproductive things.
Other days, I come home, happy and productive, work ahead, work on my writing with stories, clean and organise the house, play with my dogs, etc., and have a nice night.
I don't know what's wrong. I need help. I'll try to see my phsycologist, but due to my mom's precarious work schedule, that won't be in a while.
Advice?
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