[nintendude]

She had threatened to lie about all of it, until I had my sister text her so she had another point of view to realize I was not the only one to make things happen. I understand my faults in this and I'm letting myself hurt as the punishment.

It just hurts she kinda has to hide me. The fact that stuff started so fast with her and this other guy continues to hurt too, because I wonder what I had done wrong as a boyfriend. She also somewhat cheated on me before too, but I was quick to forgive because I forgive easily. It's hurting a bit that she wants so much to make him better; I guess that's also my fault because I always say how I would be forgiving always even if I was hurt. She's trying to keep this guy because she's at a risk of losing him. I almost made it seem like I was never a risk to lose because I always want to be with her, as a best friend or a romantic interest. I continue to love her even through all of it though.