[Celyn]

Hey and welcome to TH!

Sorry to hear about what you have been through.

As Bex said, it can be hard for parents who hear about what happened to their child. It doesn’t make what your mum did right, but it might help to explain that maybe she is just having trouble dealing with things too.

Do you have anyone to talk to about this? Dealing with trauma on your own, can be difficult and many people have different ways of trying to cope with all the feelings and memories. I don’t know if you’ve seen this, but we have an alternatives to self-harm thread that you might find useful: http://www.teenhelp.org/forums/f12-self-harm/t9418-alternatives-self-harm/

Panic attacks can also be hard to deal with. When you have one, try to calm your breathing and remind yourself where you are, and that you are safe.

Since you are feeling low and having panic attacks, I’m wondering if you have any help dealing with all of this at all? You could talk to your dad, a teacher, or a doctor about how you feel. If things don’t improve, then you might find counselling helpful.

Take care