[cassandralombardi]

So a couple of years ago (I was 13 going on 14) I was hanging out in town with my friends. There was a big group of us, sort of just spread out all around. Anyways, I met this guy, who I will refer to as "J". J was extremely nice to me, and seemed to be interested in me. As my boyfriend (of 1 year) and I had just broken up, I was definitely feeling very self-conscious and very down. I was definitely not in the best place in my life. J and I were talking a bit, and he seemed pretty okay. He quickly told me a story about how his mom had kicked him out, and he had nowhere to stay for the night. Being the kind of person who always wants to help and protect others, I proceeded to tell him that I would help him find a place to stay at the end of the day. People started leaving, and I told him I would help him find a motel and even pay for him (as he claimed he had no money). We wandered around for a bit, until we found a motel. He asked me if I wanted to come upstairs, and even though I was hesitant, I was extremely naive and agreed to come with him. It never crossed my mind that anything remotely sexual would happen (hindsight, I should have obviously never agreed to come with him). When we were in the room, he was sitting on the bed, and I was sitting on the chair. I was trying to tell him about myself, and he did not seem interested at all. He asked me to come and join him, but I said no. I started to feel uncomfortable and made my way to the bathroom, trying to think of what to do. When I came back outside, he had moved from the bed and was closer to the bathroom, he started trying to kiss me and take my clothes off. I told him that I didn't want to, and I did definitely not want to have sex. However he got his way, and we did end up having sex, even though I distinctly told him no several times.
Now, my question is; was this rape? I mean the sex was not consensual, I did not want to do it, I said no multiple times, I felt afraid, and I felt threatened. I definitely felt that he was forcing me to do something I did not want to do, especially because when I tried to stop it, he merely pinned my arms down to the bed.