[blurryface]

i'm putting it all in white because yo, i'm bout to fuckin go off.

WHY ISN'T IT SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE TO PUNCH PEOPLE IN THE THROAT. SERIOUSLY. LIKE, FUCK. my phone is broken and it has been for months now. my phone is a piece of shit but yet i should be grateful i have a phone anyway cause i could still be using the one before this which was like wow we'll not go there. the really cool headphones i got that were like jesus made them with his own hands? yeah they're broken. and i didn't fucking do anything to them. i've had them for two weeks. (although i do have better ones, i'm willing to bet my sister's gonna want them back at some point and then i'm fucked.) i need a fucking cigarette but i have no money and i'm also only 17. also i'm on prozac and going to be on birth control. bottom line: not supposed to be smoking at all. DO YOU KNOW HOW ANNOYING THAT IS. my hair looks fucking stupid like jesus fuck i look like a 12 year old boy with a massive fucking cowlick. although it fits because my face looks like god shit on it. MY ENTIRE BEING LOOKS LIKE GOD FUCKING SHIT ON ME. i have stupid homework in english that i don't wanna fucking do cause it's fucking dumb and wow like i'm not einstein but i am better than this. i swear, i really hope i don't have to go to that class tomorrow because i'm like this close to punching a bitch. doesn't matter who the bitch is. i'm gonna punch someone. they're making me take all these tests which could be avoided if i took the pert but NO ONE IS LETTING ME TAKE THE PERT. LIKE FUCKING FUCK YOU UP THE ASSES. lord knows i need a fucking job. i literally have $2.92 to my name. TWO DOLLARS AIN'T GONNA GET ME BACK TO ARIZONA NEXT YEAR. THAT AIN'T EVEN GONNA GET ME FOOD TOMORROW, LIKE ARE YOU FUCKING. fuck. fuckity fuck. and no one here is hiring apparently. they don't want me here? good. i don't wanna fucking be here either. although i doubt anyone wants me anywhere because no one ever talks to me unless i start the fucking conversation. "oh but i need you and i can't wait to see you and i love you more than anything and you're my world" BITCH START SHOWING IT ONCE IN A WHILE, LIKE DAMN. IT AIN'T HARD. i'm done. i don't even think that phrase means anything anymore because i say it at least 12 times a day but wow i'm so done. i don't wanna wake up tomorrow. i don't wanna go back to that shitty fucking high school. i don't wanna graduate from here. i don't wanna go to college. i just want to take all of my pills and go to sleep and not wake up but knowing me, i'd fail at that too. it isn't committing suicide that scares me. it's failing. i want someone to listen to me. do i really have to start hurting myself again or start trying to kill myself again to make people listen? do i have to start ditching school to get you realize that, hey, i'll risk not graduating so i don't have to fucking keep going through this? i ain't worth shit and my exit from this world is way overdue.