[Twinge]

I feel something between being disappointed in myself, longing (slight sadness, bittersweet), being unfortunate while surprisingly fortunate, tiredness and hopefulness right now. This is hard to describe, but... I'm sad, and in pain, but not at complete since I don't have a definite reason to be sad and depressed right now; my eyes are sticking out of the water, held by a hook.

It rains slow... or not at all. When am I gonna start understanding myself better so I can move on with my life with some confidence for a change...

I wish things go well. I don't want to worry or imagine the worst.

I still miss...maybe that is why. Long day it will be.