Hi Christina (^__^)/
Thanks for the response! I just wanted to let you know, I'm not offended at all by your suggestion. If it comes down to it, getting assistance from the government sounds like a viable option for me so I'll keep that in mind!
And thank you to everyone else who responded

I really appreciate all the support! This thread gives me some hope

and most of you suggested talking to a counselor which is something I've been thinking about for some time. So I'll be sure to look further into that. Thanks again!