[Rosemma]

I just feel so lonely.
I really feel like I have nothing, no one to talk to.
Except for a boyfriend who was out with friends all night last night. Then had a couple of hours sleep and went to see them again today.
How do I know? Because I just called and then just felt stupid and more alone than I did before.

I suppose it was just horrible to hear that when I called. I suppose I just wanted or expected to hear something else. He saw them all day, then all night and now again this morning.

I dont mind him going out and seeing friends, they are all nice people.
It just makes me feel more lonely. Its not his fault.
I just wish I never called, I felt so dumb and I just didnt know what to say.
Why couldnt he have called me this morning and told me instead?

He said maybe he will see me tonight, but even if he does he will arrive late and leave early. And in the time inbetween he will just be tired. And he will tell me how tired he is and I wont know if I should scream or cry.