Thread: Triggering (SH): Relapse with self harm
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Relapse with self harm - August 14th 2014, 02:46 AM
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I just messed up again! I made it 54 days then messed up 5 days ago. I thought I could make it 54 days again, but messed up again!!! I'm so angry!!! I was just overwhelmed, my little sibling just got pretty hurt, and then my parent started to yell at my other sibling who is an adult because they did not come up to see if my little sibling was alright. So now my older sibling is getting kicked out tomorrow and my little sibling has a huge bump on their head. I forgot to take my meds this morning so I have been really anxious all day. I'm just super mad, a little while ago I was telling myself "I just don't care, it will help, I just don't care". And started to self-harm. I was suppose to make it 54 more days! I don't want to disappoint my therapist nor my parents! I know better coping skills I just messed up again! I don't want to keep messing up, I keep failing my expectations!