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Re: I'm 13 gay and lonely - August 14th 2014, 01:51 AM
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Originally Posted by Zpantle View Post
Hey I don't know how to post on these sites because I don't do it often but I just feel like it would help if I did so here I go

I'm 13 almost 14 and semi out of the closet ( lets just say I'm in the hamper ) as I've come out to my good friends and my mom although I'm not sure if my dad knows or not but if feel like I can't ever tell anyone how I actually feel I'm a generally shy and socially awkward person who hides their emotions behind constant sarcasm jokes and bad puns and when I say lonely I don't mean I have no friends I have a good few and many just mutual friendships but I always feel kind of disconnected and want someone I can talk to and relate to without worry. And sometimes I feel like one day everyone I know will pop out and say everything was a lie ( even though that's unrealistic ) I still feel like that would happen. I mean I live in a middle class area and go to a normal school but always feel alone and as if I can't talk to anyone ever. Especially after one of the people I thought were my friend would always threaten or say loudly in class "zacs gay!" So I feel like I can't trust people


Well I'm going to end it here because I'm probably dragging on about the same damn things over and over again maybe I'll add more who knows but I'd love to hear if people can actually relate to this etc.
My problem is similar to yours. I am usually shy and a lot of my emotions I just keep bottled up inside which Is probably bad but I can't help it. I'm not decided my sexuality but I feel like I have to lie to everybody and tell them I'm simply straight. I'm always worried about sexual tension or awkwardness whether my friend is a girl or guy even though I'm not sure yet. I don't have many close friends and they don't even know all there is to know about me.

Enough about me. You said you have some close friends that you are out to? Since you are already out to them I think venting to them in complete honesty might make you feel better and even add a greater sense of trust to your relationship as friends. Also, don't feel like you have to be someone you're not, In social scenarios just be yourself and don't worry If it's been awhile since you've made a pun or you think you've made too many. Just go with the flow bro!