[MercuryHalo]

Yeah but everything sounds super pointless unless you have rich parents who can pay for you. You're going for classes and that's IT. Even if I work to earn spending money for extracurricular and time abroad, it won't go to any of that any way. It'll all have to go to loans. So I'm kind of feeling like what's the point. I should have just chose community college and be done with it the way everyone makes it sound. I'm not naive I know what a loan is and that you have to pay it back but what's the difference? 20 years or 25? You already gonna have a long ass time of paying back loans might as well at least make it worth it...

Also if you work too much you'll screw yourself over for student loans in the first place because that's what happened to my sister. Everyone around me seems to have an opinion about something that doesn't help. My Dad says don't work, the financial counsellor said don't work if you don't have to loans are there to MAKE school your job. My sister says work but don't work too much, a friend says work as much as you can and so does a coworker.

It's quite frustrating. I'm not sure what I should be doing but I know I came to THIS school because of all the opportunities for things OUTSIDE of classes but I struggle with anxiety and can't handle a full course load and more than maybe 10-12 hours of work max. And if I do that I won't have much time for anything else because I need Jiu Jitsu to manage my anxiety....

I am interested in equestrian, habitat for humanity and studying abroad, and possibly boxing if the university offers it. On top of Jiu Jitsu and studies...and probably work.

I have some people tell me it's doable and others shun me for even aiming for that...