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Hey there,

I don't know how old you are, but there definitely are people you can go to about this! For example, if you are in school still, you can talk to a teacher, guidance counselor, or school nurse. You can talk to coaches or club advisers. You can speak with doctors. In fact, here is a list of people you can talk to! And this is a list of hotlines. I do hope you will be able to talk to at least one of the people on this list, because you deserve the support. They can help you cope in other ways and manage your emotions better.

If you think it'd be easier, you can write the person you pick to speak with a letter, because that way everything will be gotten out without nerves or interruptions getting in the way. They will still want to talk about it, but at least your main points will be out!

This is a link to a list of alternatives to self harm. They are healthier, safer ways to cope so you don't have to inflict pain on yourself anymore. If one alternative doesn't work, try another! One will!

You do need to find ways to express your emotions. Writing, art, music, or exercise are all good ways to do this because they are ways to let the emotions flow in healthier ways. Exercise may especially be helpful in your situation. Maybe you can take up a sport, for example, or go on a run when you feel angry.

It seems promising to me that you wish to speak with someone about this and find ways to stop, though, because admitting you have a problem is the first step towards recovery!

-Dez