[Philomath]

Hi,

I am sorry to hear about your Nan. I can relate to losing someone close, not as close as you were with your Nan but people that definitely impacted my life to a major extent.
I am glad that other people have responded letting you know that you are not alone because this is true. Many people know what you are going through and are willing to listen.
Is it possible for you to improve your relationship with your parents? I know you mentioned that your relationship with them is not very great. Maybe they are not and have not shown how much her loss has affected them. Everyone grieves differently and maybe if you talk with them you will realize that they are in a similar place in the grieving process as well.
We are all here for you as well.