[Twinge]

I wanted this so much. Now why could I possibly want to back off from it... maybe I just need time. There is enough time for that, yet the rest pressures me so...to the point, in which I need to make a decision. I'm tired of people asking me. I'm tired of the lack of wanting I am facing now. I wish my friend was here for me but she is too busy being deluded by her own junk. I just won't care about anyone in my life and take care of myself this time. Not making that mistake again. Mind focused on myself from now and on.