i know that it all seems like all roads are dead ends, but this is definitely not the case. Things will get better for you. You just need to be given the chance to mix around and have fun with people your age. I know that your parents are strict, but you should be able to reason with them and get some liberty and freedom.
i know that you need to try to change things first in order for them to get better.
hang in there. we're here for you. and keep in mind that you are not someone who deserves all this sadness. You deserve happiness and you deserve better things in life. Try having a heart-to-heart talk with them when there are no temper flares.
i know it's tough, but hang in there. we're here for you