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Alive -
July 24th 2014, 10:43 PM
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Your breathing but are you alive ? It feels like your doing what you can to do survive but at the same time your questioning your existence, your wondering if your in a deep sleep and one day you'll just like wake up from this nightmare and realize that past few years you've been in some deep coma where you have just laid there like a vegetable yet you were like completely aware of everything going on around you ?
No. Your just simply trying to survive each day. But life's worn you down, left you with battle wounds marking every inch of your body, legs, arms, thighs, stomach, all of it, every wound a reminder of the battles you fought and still are fighting, a reminder that even though you feel like your dead your scars and battle wounds are a reminder that you're still battling yourself and that your really just like trying to survive this thing called life.
The blades become a friend in itself. An enemy as well. It's like your drowning but its like no matter how hard you scream no one can hear you and your screams are just like falling into the sea the waves crashing against the sea wall like completely drowning out your screams.
'There will be bad days, there will be good days, there will be really bad days, and really good days, and days that are not bad or good but just simply suck, but either way you got through it and you are here today and that is all that really matters''
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