[bitesize]

Oh God, saying goodbye to you was the hardest goodbye I've had to say today. I still love you so much, I love that we've been lucky enough to have the break-up that we've had but I just, ohh, my heart was sore when I had to hug you and just keep it at a normal little hug and then watch you walk away and know that I can't see you, even if I want to, really want to, for three whole months, and that's the longest we've ever ever gone without seeing each other and I'm worried it'll let us drift so far apart that we can't even be this nice friendly ex thing we've been being. God I miss you so much. So fucking much. And I kept thinking about what tonight would have been like if we hadn't broken up - maybe we would have kept it low-key and cuddled on the sofa. And instead it was just a hug and a kis on the cheek goodbye which is what everybody got, I just had so much more feeling for you than anyone else. God I love you.