[kodz]

Why accuse me of not starting conversations when you don't say much either? You know I'm shy and reserved in person, yet you still expect me to change magically overnight into the person you want me to be. Why do you say everything is fine when you've barely said shit to me today? Why do I have to put in all the effort in a relationship where I don't even feel loved or cared about? Why are you so confusing? You'll be leaving in less than 2 months anyways, I don't want to waste my time anymore. Maybe I'm just being paranoid and insecure. If you really do like me for me, and not because I'm always there, then show me something. Be committed. Make an effort to open me up, because there might be something there worth all your efforts. Stay with me during my ups and downs, and I'll try and do the same. If not, then I don't know if this can go on.