[mindflower]

the tension in my house right now is disgusting.
really just wanna leave this place.
or make them all leave, idk.

all I'm asking for is a little fucking care and support. you know, because i have the self esteem of a blade of grass and i can't lose you, and i feel like i'm losing you to her all over again and it hurts like you wouldn't believe, i know i probably am dramatic and annoying and you probably know you could do better and deserve better, so me asking for some more effort is kind of selfish but i'm in hell all alone here. you know, my parents are on the edge of a fucking divorce, i'm suicidal as hell and on the borderline of falling back to cutting, and my ex won't fucking stop playing with my head, and my grades suck and i suck and i won't suck you and UGH.
I just can't lose you.

grades. magically should just go up. now.

i want to sleep for like 5 days. and cuddle you and just remind you how much i love you and remind myself that you might at least like me... hella...