I'm crawling out of my skin. It's funny how I haven't been this anxious to get an email from you in years- it used to be for happy reasons, but now it's because I wait to know whether or not we should shoot this thing in the face and put us out of our misery. To be honest I couldn't believe myself, texting with you today, then emailing you. At one point almost like we were normal. Almost. But we are still far, far from normal.