[mindflower]

My throat is starting to kill again which means more medications more pills more triggers and more tears. I don't know why I'm still alive but its kind of... annoying...
I wanna see him this weekend, please, oh God please. I'm losing him. I'm losing him just like I did everyone else. I can't lose him. He's the only thing making me wait. I've waited so long for him and I can't even be happy.
I'm not happy and I don't know why.
Homework is a bitch and I'm getting zits because of it stupid stress.
Pat needs to just stop... so does Mimi....
Today just sucked and I don't know what's going to happen now. I'm such a mess.
I really hate me.