[Gingerspice]

I am in a long distance relationship with a girl who I can see going the distance with. She's. . . Virtually the love of my life, and I can't picture it without her at the moment. I look into the future, and I see her. And, mind you, we're not completely separated by distance. . . We're three hours and one state away and we'll have the opportunity to meet this summer.

However, my mother doesn't know about us - - And she's big on internet safety. When it comes down to it. . . I'm sure my mom suspects I chat with people online. It's the internet and I'm a teenager, right? My older brother picked up girls on aim when he was like 13, and that was like. . . Ten years back. So she knows that internet flirtation is legit, she's not totally naive, and she's on a few forums herself.

But, I don't think she knows how far that goes with me? I doubt she would understand, or really accept the fact that I've fallen for a girl I've never met. . . And she'd be concerned, concerned that she wasn't "real" and perhaps even angry at me for getting so close to somebody who I can't physically be with. I don't know what she would do, but I do fear that she would take my computer away? Make us break up? Yell?

And also. . .

While I'm out to her as a lesbian, I came out two years ago and we've never talked about it since. I honestly wonder if she even thinks that I still am that way since it's never been mentioned.

Advice?