[Kate*]

I can't redo this, so I'll have to tell him what I know I screwed up and hope for the best. I'm 99.9% sure that I'm delaying that at this point so I probably won't even call to schedule tomorrow. I just want to pass and know that I will eventually have clients because I don't want to feel like I've wasted my entire life to get this close and lose everything over behavior I didn't realize I was doing.

You'd better have an idea for remediation because I am not quitting. I'm walking away with this degree in my hand or you are throwing me out of here and you're the one who told me you thought that was still an option so you'd better be right.

The fear is coming back on me some. I don't see him for 2 weeks, which is fine because I don't feel like I need him yet. I don't know how I did on that and pas or fail I don't know what it's going to mean. Some people don't mind being behind, but I've fought so hard to avoid it that behind will now mean completely stuck and I'm scared that it's going to fall apart.