[Awakening]

Hey,

I'm really sorry that this happened. I know it must be a really difficult thing to deal with and I can understand why you're so upset. The way your friend and your ex are treating you is completely unfair and you deserve a lot better than that. I don't think that either of them deserve to have a place in your life.

It's understandable that you might still have feelings for your ex. You didn't break up very long ago and it's not very easy to simply change how you feel once a relationship is over. It might take awhile for you to fully get over him, but I think that it's something you need to do. You deserve to be in a relationship with someone who you can trust and who treats you right. Even if your ex does still have feelings for you he's obviously not that kind of person.

If your friends are so quick to turn against you without even hearing your side of things then maybe they aren't very trustworthy either. It seems silly to turn away from a friend simply because another friend is having a disagreement with them. I think you should try to explain your side of the story to your friends and see if that changes things. If they're not willing to listen or take what you have to say seriously than it may be time to reevaluate your friendships with them. Maybe try meeting some new people with mutual interests who you feel you could have better friendships with.

One thing I've learned through dealing with my fair share of negative relationships is that it's a lot better to be on your own or to have only a couple friends than to have a ton of friends who don't treat you right. You might be tempted to stay friends with the girl who hurt you or to get back with your ex simply because you want to have a boyfriend or a best friend and don't want to feel alone. But you need to do your best to remember what you deserve. Sticking with people who hurt you will only end up preventing you from finding the people who treat you right.

Try not to worry so much about your friend or your ex. I know this is way easier said than done, but obviously neither of them were considering you or how you'd feel when they were hooking up with each other. If they're not worried about you why should you take the time to worry about them or your relationships with them? They're not at all worth your time. Try to focus more on other relationships with people who treat you fairly.

I also want to add that you should never feel pressured into having sex with someone simply so that they will stay with you. I know this wasn't really one of your concerns in your post, but I can see how the current circumstances might make you feel as if sex is something necessary in order to keep a relationship. But the right person will willingly wait until you're ready and would never consider hooking up with someone else in the meantime. You made the right decision not to have sex with this guy and I hope you'll continue to wait until you know for sure that you're ready.

I'm totally confident that you will end up meeting a guy, and new friends, who will treat you the way you deserve to be treated. Just don't settle for anything less than you deserve. I hope this helped a little and that things improve for you soon. Feel free to message me anytime. Take care!