[myaveragelife]

my ex of 4 days had sex with my best friend twice recently. after i have rejected him whilst we were going out. they are both 14 years old. she has asked him out he has said no and that he just wants her for sex. now he ha said that he still thinks about me whilst he is still having sex with her! what does that mean? he smiles at me in class but hugs her at the end of the day. he flirts with me in class but still goes back to f*****g her!!!!! i think i still have feelings for him, cuz he was the one who dumped me because i was paranoid of him going to her house ALONE whilst we were going out. they probably had sex then too. what do i do. she has turned most of my friends away from me because she said i was being mean to her. i have lost half a stone from worrying about this and still cant eat properly! i am constantly crying at home and cry myself to sleep most nights. i have previously self harmed but have stopped now but could really do with some advice. i feel all alone. please help me. i'm so confused right now.