[Lionheart]

Today was awesome. The best day I had in weeks. I loved it. Finally after all this time I was happy again and it just felt like I had left everything dark behind me and the sun was shining and everything seemed just so bright.... and then my grandma had to fall and hit her head really hard. She was unconsciouse for a few minutes and they took her to the hospital and everything is just horrible and my mum is really stressed and worried and I have to stay strong for her and why does this have to happen? Finally when everything seemed fine again? Has the world something against me?
Funny thing is, just two hours before I got home and all the shit happend I bought a book on how to handle crisis situations just like that one. Really, at least fate has some sense of humor. Funny funny funny.
Fuck you. Fuck that whole damn world! Whats the point in trying to get better when you just make things worse for me everytime I feel just a little bit better?
I hate you! I hate this life! I hate this world! I hate hate hate it! Why can't you jsut leave me alone? Let me live my life, or at least give me a little break. Just one full day of happieness, where I don't have to worry and actually feel fine, not just fake to be ok. Am I asking to much?
It's not fair. It's just nor fair...