-I'm afraid I seem really awkward around you because the last few times we have hung out I have gotten upset or irritated about something at least once. It's almost as if once we decided we were more serious about each other I just suddenly decided to let my insecurities out with you instead of trying to hide them. And I know you want me to be more honest- it's just that you're the first person I have ever dated that I feel like is really a man instead of a boy. I don't want you to think I am some neurotic mess, or at least some neurotic mess that can't take care of herself. I know that you don't think that at all, but I still can't help but worry.

- I don't want to, but I'm pretty when I lie.

- I know you're depressed, and that makes it hard to work through all of this. But the longer we go without talking about it the more I feel like I am pretending you and I have something that we don't anymore. We have many, many wonderful things, but that is not one of them. I just don't want you to say that we mean nothing without that one thing. I am terrified of what you will say when I tell you I need to step away. I'm terrified you're going to tell me to choose, because if you do tell me to choose I do not know what choice I will make.