[Kate*]

This is really going to teach me to trust people with things. I understand that you're told me that because you have to, but it hurts like hell.

You're the one who gave me more information about what's happening than anybody ever has. You can't blame me because I decided to do research and found something that matches EVERY SINGLE THING that I have and then come after me with 'self-diagnosing is dangerous and unethical" like I don't know. I took diagnosis, I've had ethics shoved down my throat adnausium, and I never said I diagnosed myself. I happened to research and found something that fits. You're also the one who said "I've never seen this, I'm going to call a friend who might know something." Now you have a term to give that person! You can't jump on me for getting excited and sharing with you that a direction you pointed me in ended up leading to something that makes EVERY struggle in my whole life make sense! By the way, if this is really what I have, this reaction makes perfect sense. I am sharing this with the psychologist Monday and I doubt he will have any arguments.

He'll probably say that he can't diagnose me with it in one session or that I need a neurologist. I'm hoping he can tell me in one session because part of me wants to rub this in your face. As unprofessional as that is, the feeling is okay.