[SpecterH]

I understand that you feel like your parents are forcing you to take this pill, and this is frustrating for you. To me, however, it seems like your parents really do care about you and love you. It seems like they want to keep you safe.

I know it's frustrating, especially when you feel like you don't need the pill. However, try to put yourself in your parents' shoes: they watched you self-harm. Do you know how hurtful that is for them to see? What would you do if you were watching your child self-harm? Self-harming is such a serious issue, and it could lead to horrible things. I think your parents are just really worried about you, and don't want anything bad to happen to you - that's why they wanted to watch you take the pill.

I'd sit down and talk to your parents about all of this - in a calm manner. If you try to talk to them while you're frustrated, I guarantee that nothing good will come out of the conversation. If you want to show them that you're mature and responsible, have a calm conversation with them and explain how you feel about their behaviour. I can almost guarantee that they'll tell you that they're worried about you, and are using the pill to help you get better.

With regards to the self-harming behaviour, it's very important that you know how serious and dangerous that behaviour is. I would encourage you to reach out and talk to someone that you trust and feel comfortable talking to: parents, siblings, teachers, friends, counsellor, etc. I know it might not seem like a big deal now, but it can become a big deal - fast. The people in your life don't want anything bad to happen to you because they care about you and love you very much. This includes your parents.

I know it's frustrating, but communicating with your parents is necessary in this situation, and I don't think anything else can be done before talking to them about it.

Good luck.