For the first time in my adult life, I feel like I am doing a relationship the right way. Yes, I freaking hate it that we are going to slow at times. But I admire you greatly for the fact you value this so much you want to go at an organic pace. And if I am honest with myself, I know that that's what's best for us, too. We have everything to gain by going at the speed that fits us, and everything to lose by going too quickly. I don't want to fuck this up.

I'm incredibly nervous to go public with you. I mean, you're you. If this were high school you wouldn't be king of the popular crowd, but you'd be up there. Everyone knows you. And I'm just me. I feel like a tagalong when I am with you. I'm also afraid to because I don't want to jinx it, ann some level, even though I know it's awful, making such a public commitment means I can't back out. I don't want to back out, but it's like being in an air-tight container and it's finally been sealed shut. The option's gone. I'm really doing this.

I don't know whether I am more excited or scared absolutely shitless. I guess we will find out tomorrow.
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