[Kate*]

As great as things were going, I didn't want to leave early. If I'm paying you for a full hour then I'd like to use the whole hour. I'm glad I stayed though and that you let me go where I needed to. I think I might've stumped you. The problem with that is that if I knew how to handle it, it would be handled and if you don't know what to do or how to handle it, I don't know what to do. I knew I could fill a whole hour. I know it feels to you like I'm all over the place, but like I've always believed, it's all connected.

I know we decided to start spreading this out, but I felt great only yesterday and then class happened and now I can't get back to the good and I can't go in for two weeks ugh. I was afraid that as soon as I decided that I needed you less, something would happen to make me regret the decision. I know you won't be available forever but I need you already and it's only been 36 hours.