[Inescapable]

Thank you so much for all the responses everyone, I really appreciate the help and the sympathies.

I'm actually going to go talk to him tomorrow because of some schedule conflicts, so I have one more day to prepare. I don't know how to explain myself to him but the problem is that I think he thinks I'm just one of those annoying students. I mean it's college and he's the typical professor who doesn't really care - I mean, he's a professor, like 70 students in the class, who am I to him? Like to him, it doesn't matter.

But I really have so many issues I could not even begin to explain. I suffer from an anxiety disorder known as depersonalization, as well as depression, and obsessive compulsive disorder. I could prove these things to him if he needed proof but I don't want to give him attitude or anything by proving it.

And on top of this I really care what people think about me, despite who it is, even if it is just some psych professor in my college years. I really admire his work too, I want to do research with him since he looks into things like depression, and anxiety - they're right up my alley!

Anyway, I feel like I'm the one young freshman in there and he likes all these older students so I think he thinks I'm just one big joke student. And I failed the test and I don't know how to explain to him that I'm really sorry for all my tardiness.

All these losses have taken a toll on my already awful mental health and I just really wish there was a way to explain it to him, but he is NOT understanding. As a PhD in psychology, I would hope he would get it but.....

I don't know what to do.