[Awakening]

You are such a bad friend. I don't know why I didn't realize that for the longest time. Every time we talk it's all about you. We're always talking about your problems even when I feel terrible and need to talk about mine. I stopped coming to school and now you don't talk to me. You say it's because you're busy with work and everything but you have plenty of time for your boyfriend and everyone else. I've done everything I can to be there for you and it's like I mean nothing to you.

One of the last times we hung out you told me you had anger towards me because I was in the hospital during a time when you needed my support. Seriously? I tried to kill myself and you were angry with me for not being there for you? You saying that keeps going through my mind and it makes me so angry. Also that time we went shopping and you lent me money and like three days later you had a fit that I hadn't paid you back yet. We were totally broke and I asked you if I could pay you back in a week or so and you were all pissed. I ended up giving you $50 and then we barely had money for groceries that week. You're so self centered and I wonder if you ever really cared about me.

It's hard because at times you've been a really good friend. But other times you've been a terrible one. I don't even know what to think of you anymore. But I know that I'm done fighting for you to be in my life. If you want to leave that's fine by me. I'm tired of making all the effort.