Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face. -
February 10th 2014, 06:38 AM
-I am absolutely terrified of the things I'm feeling for you. Something in me says stop, slow down; but I don't want to stop. I also don't want to get hurt. The fact we both want to move forward with this doesn't lessen the stakes of potential pain as a result. I'm more concerned about hurting you than about you hurting me; I just hope I don't disappoint you if I can't go all the places you want to go. I think we will be just fine, but I worry all the same. It's never made a difference in the past, but somehow I think if I still worry it will make me more prepared in the confusing realm of life we call relationships.
-Being there with you this weekend reminded me of how very much I love you. I didn't realize until then just how much our connection has suffered lately with how little we've been able to see each other and the fact we haven't had good physical relations in over two months. But dancing out there with you I remembered all the many reasons why I have chosen to be with you for the last four years of my life and will continue to be with you for many more going forward.
- I know that I will soon miss my window of opportunity to try and rekindle a friendship with you without it seeming awkward or strange, but I just don't know what to say. I know that it will never be the way it was; too much has come between us, and not speaking to one another for over four months now hasn't helped. I also don't want to get in the way of you and your new girlfriend, especially after she probably now knows I fought against you dating her for so long.
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