[Beth.]

I still think about what you did, the choices your making. Although I know I don't want you and to be with you I want you in my life after everything. But I'm still so shocked. You said so much about her, remember those talks? Where I told you to watch out for her? Where I told you she doesn't really care? She doesn't. I just don't know why you still can't see this. I was true to you from day one, and yet you won't listen to me. Your going to get hurt even worse after this. Maybe I'll be there then. I know your going to need someone. I just wish you could see what I see still. You made me feel so low that last month, yet I still really want you in my life. I don't know how that would go though. I just know your making a very bad decision. But maybe it's best to let you learn on your own again. I'm sorry for everything I've done. I'm sorry I hurt you and am not there for you anymore. I did mean all those words, but what can I say? Things change. Things have changed so much. I never thought you would do that though. Maybe your just feeling that low on yourself that you had to go to her level. Cause I know you remember those talks. Don't lie to yourself. Be careful, try. I still care about you, as much as I don't want to sometimes.