[mindflower]

Patrick, you must be one of the most complicated, egotistical assholes I've ever loved so much. I LOVE YOU but I don't think you love me. Not anymore, anyways. It faded, didn't it? We're like strangers now, and I miss when we were inseparable. I remember when you would call me this angel, and you would think of me every minute of the day, and I was so overwhelmed, but it was incredible. I mean, amazing as can be, you blew me away with how much I blew you away.
I really love you, but you can't even answer the question "Are you Happy?"
So I'm asking now, again, are you happy? Is this okay?
I have all of these weird doubts about us, really just... if I'm losing you? I think you've become mine, but that means you're mine to lose. You flirt with other girls, spend a lot of time with your friends, and hardly talk to me anymore. I mean, not counting Sadie's, we haven't gone out for quite some time, and at Sadie's you grinded with my best friend. I feel alone. Even when I'm around you, I feel disconnected.
I don't know who, or what, to blame.
You're so complicated. You drive me mad, down far in the madness and insecurity of my own darkness. But I Love you.