[mindflower]

I AM A FUCKING WORTHLESS, UGLY, FOOLISH PIECE OF DEPRESSING, HOPELESS SHIT AND I HOPE I DIE. EVERYONE WANTS ME TO DIE. EVERYONE WOULD BE SO MUCH BETTER WITHOUT ME IN THEIR LIVES AND I'M NOT AN IDIOT, I FUCKING SEE THAT NOW. PAT IS GOING TO BREAK UP WITH ME AND ITS NO SECRET WHY. WHY WOULD ANYONE LOVE ME? MATTHEW HATES MY FUCKING GUTS AND I SHOULDN'T CARE BUT I DO WAY TOO MUCH. I'M A DICK TO MIMI AND A DICK TO MY FRIENDS, I AM A HUGE-ASS BURDEN ON MY FAMILY, AND I AM JUST THIS NUCLEAR BOMB WAITING TO EXPLODE AND EVERYONE IS RUNNING FOR THE HILLS.
I'M FAT, FAKE, CRAZY, RECKLESS, STUPID, DESPERATE, AND A WHORE. I DON'T EVEN GIVE A FUCKING SHIT ANYMORE. I HOPE WHEN I WALK OUTSIDE AN ICICLE FALLS ON MY HEAD AND GOES THROUGH MY SKULL OR I GET HIT BY A BUS OR I JUST SHRIVEL UP AND ROT AWAY.
FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT.
WHY DO I EVEN TRY ANYMORE GOD FUCKING DAMNIT.