[justsmilekid]

I started cutting 6 months ago. I dont even really know why is cut the first time, I was just feeling down. Things have gone from terrible to 'no one would ever guess im sad' in a matter of minutes. One day im crying my eyes out cutting and the next im smiling with my friends laughing and feeling so stupid for cutting the night before. I hate it. But I dont want to stop. Its pathetic. I do it when im stressed or sad. But lately im trying to not starve myself like I did before. I lost [EDIT] over a summer due to that. But my mum dosent know. But cutting really gets me. I dont want to stop but I know it makes me more broken. I dont know what to do anymore. My best friend also is trying to not cut afain, she has a couple times without me knowing. Im alot more far gone tho.at school im finr then i get home and i break down or just sit there. My mum is a big problem for me, shes selfish and rued and i dont like her. My dad lives away, i miss him a lot. But i still have contact with him. Im just not sure anymore. I hate this feeling of nothing. Pleasr help meen.