I have had near-suicide attempts quite a few times recently. And my family never has known about them or my depression. I cry while writing this, because my family doesn't know that they are the cause. My parents, well, my dad has anger issues and my mom blows up at me all the time. So I keep myself locked up in my room with my music up loud so they won't hear me crying (they would demand to know why and then make me feel worse). Then they wonder why I keep to myself all the time and get mad at me for my antisocial-ness around them. But why would I want to subject myself to hurtful words that make me feel like crap all the time? I just don't know what to do anymore and I can't turn to my friends because they would tell their parents who would tell mine. My parents would get pissed for never telling them. Plus, my family can't afford counseling help or anything, what with my dad not having a job and all. My only comfort is my dog. And skittles really only hangs out around my dad. What do I do? I feel lost and depressed.
