[mindflower]

I wasn't fucking ignoring you Pat, but that doesn't change what you did. I left because I figured you were done with me, and hey, you were already on to other girls, so I disappeared. But I wasn't "ignoring you", because you weren't making any effort to talk to me either, were you? Listen okay? I was crazy about you, like, I was falling for you faster than anyone else I've ever fallen for. I've never loved someone like you, and when you started drifting away from me, it scared me, and I didn't want to be hurt again. But really, you have no idea how much I cried over what happened. You weren't mine to lose but I thought I had lost you.... What if you had used me, what if I scared you away, what if everything I had happen between Matthew and Cody and Mimi was all for nothing? Frankly, when you asked me why "I was ignoring you"... that hurt too, but it was your voice, directed to me once again, and it felt amazing. Because I still needed you.... I've been crazy about you since the first time we talked dammit...
I wasn't ignoring you. How can I possibly try to forget about someone so amazing?
And.... now you're mine and if I ever lose you... I don't know what I'll do
You're amazing Patrick. Please never forget me