Hey hun!
I'm sorry for what you've been through and what you're going through, but honestly it's not worth it, not at all. You're just leaving behind ugly scars, scars that will remind you of how weak you were and trust me that feeling that you get when you realize you're weak, it's horrible.
harming yourself it's not going to get you anywhere.
Whenever you feel like cutting just stop for a minute and think think about the acid thrown victims(if you don't know about them, search them up) they want nothing more than to get rid of those scars.
Even though it's the internal beauty that counts but these scars will eat you up, they will eat your confidence up, they'll finish you. So I would suggest you don't continue it.
If you ever want to talk or anything just leave me a message, I'm here for you!
take care of yourself and don't destroy that beautiful body which is a gift to you from God!
Stay positive in life! and face the hurdles with bravery!